hmmm...
update a bit...
bought a new Bowling Ball on 16th August with ah xiang... he too bought a ball...
i got myself a 14lbs Ebonite Gamebreaker.. keke... been bowling in a very hardcore manner for the past weekends... afternoon, evening, midnite... wahahaa... money all gone to bowling... $_$
life mainly into bowling and nothing else... its something to keep me busy...
been thinking too much... hmmm... i wanna meet some friends.. come out tok tok sing song play mahjong... watch movie and have dinner... haiz... dunno wat to update liaoz...
finished my AHM yesterday.. 21km... *ANGRY*
run till leg cramp also struggle to complete... complete oledi then the faggot dun wan giv me my medal... say cannot give SAF personnel liaoz.. wtf lor!!! if i know earlier, i walk all the way liaoz... *ANGRY*

this is so unfair...
u only listened to that secondary sch fren of mine... which i dunno who...
u nv gave me any chance to explain anything...
its all 1 sided story, u know i alwaz have people stabbing me...
u only listened to him/her.. everything also he/she say.. have u bothered to find out the truth?
y cant u give me a chance at all? am i really so fucked up? does nobody trust me at all?
i'm no longer the sherman i used to be, but who cares?

and on different horo, i'm on either side of taurus and gemini...
so dun include me in taurus only...

i miss u, i really do..
even after going to 3 yrs...
i still miss u as much as before...
i told my closest frens, my buddies, my jiemeis... everybody...
i miss u.. they just said, "STUPID!" "GO SNATCH HER BACK LAHZ!"
but 1 thing they dun know, i cant do anything, i wasnt given any chances to at all..
u hated me to the core, we cant even be friends after broke up...
until now i still dunno y, but i assumed it was becoz of the way i behaved after 12/08/04...
i know if i nv behaved that way, we would have been back together... that was my biggest regret in life.. biggest regret in my 22yrs...
i've tried letting others into my heart, but no, none can replace u...
i've tried letting u go, but i cant. u meant so much to me...
i've let them down, those few after u, i've nv been fair to them...
i've treated them like a substitute, but seriously, i did tried loving them like how i love u, but i just cant let them into my heart... u're there, alwaz there...
that 4 yrs and 9 mths are my most beautiful period of my life.. or rather, my love life...
thank you for being there for me... to u, there might not be any happy memories, but to me, everyday is a happy memory to me..
remember when i 1st met u on 101199... u came with jane and emily to wilson's chalet, i still remembered i only asked wat CCA(ECA at that time) u were in? and that was the only thing i tok to u about. i nv asked for ur name... after u left, i asked wilson wat's ur name, he called jane to ask, and that stupid wilson gave me a wrong name becoz his ang moh CMI, and i was calling the wrong name for the whole nite...
2 days later i called u, after a while of chit chatting, i asked u to be my gf, and u said "anything"..
and i said "anything means yes lor", and u said "anything"... i will nv forget that nite...
and the time, it was 11.10pm... date was 12/11/99..
remember that day? when i meet u at wilson's house downstairs with liangyi and wilson..
i took cab down to wilson's place, when i arrived, our ms liangyi was saying "eh eh, yandao yandao~!"
haha.. i bet she din know i was ur bf at that time... i was wearing a singlet and berms, with a golden necklace... and u in uniform... the best part was after that, when i wanna send u home, we went to bus stop, i wanna hold ur hand, but u die die nv open ur palm... i so paiseh sia, dunno y u dun wanna let me hold ur hand.. nvm bout that, when we boarded the bus, u told me ur mum was in the bus, i was like "OMG!" lol... so funny lor...
then u called me when u reached home, u told me u nv open ur hand becoz u holding coins... -.-"
thanks ah! =x

alot of many incidents which i dun wanna type out, coz it will be very very long... but its all memories of u and i... which i will nv forget... i'm still keeping the mickey mouse bolster u bought for me, its still by my side every nite i sleep... and that 25hrs watch which we bought together, our couple watch, i still wearing it, everytime i c the time, i think of u...
best to stop here, memories are still memories...

all the best to u & him...

with love,
sherman
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