everything seems so impossible with her

suddenly everything changed..
its like she got another guy, then she's tired of me..
the feeling is so... argh i dunno!
where is all the closeness/bonds/love?

it's like during those days when i was still flirting around, when i found someone new, i tend to neglect/ignore the previous 1.. so is this karma? what comes around goes around..

now that i'm serious, i am being faithful, nobody believe! leopard nv changes its spots?! BULLSHIT! people do change.. =(

i tried to change for her, everything she said, i take them seriously.. what she dont like, i take note, but what's the point when she don't bother?

she's the 2nd girl i really really love! i want her to have the very best in everything to the extend that i can give, i want her to be happy, but who really cares?!
she treats me HOT & COLD..
we're not attached as she don't want a commitment, we used to look like flings, but now it seems more like good friends..

i'm so tired..
i don't know how much longer i can hold on..
it seems that she don't bother.. she ask me to give up if i want to..