went to get her Chanel No. 5 fragrance today.. she said she wanted it, so i thought she'll be delighted to see it, but who knows, no reactions...

i'm pretty much still the same.. i think all the fault lies with me..
sensitive, ego, possessive!
i did not change a single bit.. that explains why so much had happened..
same as 8 yrs ago.. quarrels everyday..

after she met me, her life pretty much got ruined by me.. everyday she woke up, there is surely something to spoil her day.. i mean arguments.. from me.. i bet she was never happy with me around.. getting involved with me is a torture & nightmare to her..
no use how hard i try to turn things back, it takes 2 hands to clap.. things would NEVER be the same anymore..

i wan her to be happy, but she will never be with me around.. am i supposed to let her go?
or HOW can i let her go? enough of quarrels everyday, if i cant let her be happy, then why am i making things difficult for her?

its stupid to see my comments got deleted from her FB & friendster.. i am affected by her calling other guys darlings & stuffs.. i really dunno what to do.. i am just FAN JIAN!
when they are nice to me, i take for granted.. when they treat me like shit, i treat them like treasure..