It's Over!

it ended before it even started. it seems pretty easy for her to say "from now on, don't contact me". it's not the 1st time she said this kinda things to me. I'm just fan jian! but this time, i guess it's really over.

new 1 don't come, old 1 don't go.

saw some pics from her friendster account, really wonder who is behind those shadows.

but i guess it does not matters now. it's these pics & those comments that encourages me to let her go. every time out with her, see her reply sms like 80% of the time. but when i text her, she doesn't seems to reply. haha. I'm nobody, did she ever appreciated me? will she learn to cherish me like how much i wanted to cherish her? god knows.

sometimes i felt that I'm being taken for granted. she shouts at me for all she likes, i kept quiet.

sometimes when i cant take it, i react back? THATS IT! most of the time i wanna act as though nth happen, try to comfort her again, but it seems that act as though nth happened is wrong to her. things i said will somehow make her wanna quarrel with me. sometimes its not becoz of the words i used, its just that it had became a habit that she will take my text to be agitating. so eventually, quarrels starts.

just now for e.g we're supposed to go movie with her sister then she text me something, maybe she din mean anything, but i actually thought she was being sarcastic, thats when another quarrel started. then throughout the whole session, we only talk bout 5 times? i was very hungry coz i skipped my dinner, i asked mummy not to buy for me, coz i was expecting to meet her for supper at beach culture. but a change of plans, they decided to go movie. wanted to go her place that coffeeshop for some food, but she just gave me that face, who on earth will be dare to ask her go eat together? so i told her i'm not eating. intend to send her up, then she give me that face again. what have i done wrong again?

nowadays, she everything also like wanna hide from me, so secretive. will i not anyhow think?

trust? no more. she's got this Tang dunno wat calling her baby. haha. then wat bout me? i no longer exist in her world, in fact did i even existed for once?

going over to my cousin's place later, cousin had asked her to go over since the 2nd day of CNY.

after these quarrels, i'm afraid she will no longer wanna see me, hence, i'll be alone later.

if she only had really gave me a chance, treat me like someone important to her.. argh nvm..

whining again? she will say.. but i have nobody to talk to.. everyone is busy with work & studies.

talk to my dog, he also dun understand, but he knows when i'm down. he's alwaz here beside me.

*tears*

i'll never find someone like you.

starving, but to the bed i'm heading.